I’ve missed you.
I went away and got stuck in a transition. Ugh, really?? Another change I have to figure out?

Yup. Happens to the best of us.

See I took on a lot this fall. Homeschooling not 1 but 2 kids. Year 7 at our co-op preschool. Five 4H projects and helping (my Dad) Tom on the new book and attempting to work a few days a week.

What the what?? Am I crazy? What is wrong with me?? Not enough hours in the week!

And I’ve been a MESS! Juggling my life like this. Trying to be the best at everything all the time. Feeling totally overwhelmed and out of control. Melting down every single Wednesday for the last 3 months. And utterly distracted from what I really want to do.

Then I had a great shift. (the kind we all need but when we are stuck in the junk of life we think we can’t take the time to have!)

I got honest with myself. Really honest. Brutally honest. And I had to face a lot of things I’ve been doing to please others and ‘fit in’ better. And be perfect (there I admit it.) And I had to yet again face my fears about not being more like other people.

Ok I went to lunch with an amazing friend who looked me in the eyes and made me be honest with myself.

She said “What if you didn’t have another year? We have no idea how long we have here on Earth. What would you do differently if you didn’t have another year?”

Suddenly pleasing others, fitting in, and trying to live up to my ridiculous expectations went out the window and the important things came into sharp focus. So crystal clear.

We only have today. Right now. And that is enough.

I’m me. And I’m only happy and successful doing life my way. I can’t be who I am here to be and allow myself to be victimized by my own schedule. Or a desire to fit into others people’s way of doing things. I am a guide, an encourager, a person here to lift others up. (As I am certain you are too!!) And I take full responsibility for my life and my choices.

However weird and unconventional and potentially difficult it can be to blaze your own trail. What choice do you really have?

Do you have gifts to give the world? Are you giving them?

If you only had 1 year left on Earth what would you do differently?

When the illusion of time is released we can see clearly. Priorities become evident. We feel sure.

What do you want? Where do you want to be? How do you want to experience your life? Make it count. You only get one shot.

I’m back! And I’ve got some great ideas. Join me! Let’s blaze some trails.

Much love,
Penelope